Beautiful Faults - Episode 18

 

June’s POV

Dear Jinglebell,
I laughed a little before I could continue reading the letter that Justine had sent from the past and my heart leaped because I was so sacred of opening the letter that I had left it for days before I opened it this morning after I had a fight with mom over dad’s infidelity.

“You need to stop ignoring the fact that hes cheating on you, mom. Its unfair and the fact that he doesn’t even reeespect you anymore gets  to me and you ignoring it kills me too” I had attacked her immediately she entered the house after her one month trip to God knows where and the media had shown dad as the new sweetheart to a rich and wealthy heiress.

“Since when did you start to care, because the last time I checked, I don’t even exist in your dictionary anymore, all you’ve ever done is lock yourself up and ignore me like I don’t even exist to you when I’m still your mother and now you’re here to accuse me of being stupid and ignorant” This is the exact reason why I never tried to approach her about dad’s issues, she’ll always turn and flip the table around and over at me.

“This isn’t about me, this is about your marriage . I never ignored you, you did it first, you regretted having me when Justine died because you know its all my fault

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. Your trip became more frequent when you were supposed to be here with me” I countered back

“Who fed you with that rubbish, it was you who refused to open the door to your room and to your heart no matter how hard anyone knocked, I stayed over at home for two months hoping you’ll open up, but all you did was lock up the more I tried and I thought you hated me that much, so I had to leave home for you to be normal. When I came home and saw that you were okay at Veronica’s place, I realized that my absence was all you needed not me”

God! I hate myself now
“Mom..” I couldn’t find the right word to say.

“Save it June. You don’t have to say anything because you don’t have the slightest idea of what I went through seeing my own daughter in that state when I had nothing to do. We’re both together on the same page June, I’m finding it difficult to move away from a marriage that’s draining me of my energy and you are finding it difficult to move on with your life due to the death of your sister”

I moved towards her an held her hands in mine. “Mom, its different” she removed my hand and disagreed with it.

“It’s the same thing June, if you want me to move out of this marriage and talk about it then you have to move on with your life. Because I won’t move on without you and I need you as much as you need me, we’re both in this together baby”

As I sit on my bed thinking about what my mom had told me earlier, the letter caught my attention and I didn’t have any other choice than to open it and I realized it was really Justine since she’s the only one who calls me jingle bell.

Dear Jinglebell,
You are beautiful! So beautiful I could hardly believe that you’ll be my sister years back and even though you were my step sister, I loved you like mine. You remember how dennis the menace was our favourite movie because we always eneded up terrorizing our neighbours with similar stunts. More like I always terrorize them while you caution and try to stop me.

Your love for pasta and meatballs gave me courage to stand the meal, God knows how much I hated that combination. You were my best friend till you drifted away from us after harry threatened you in the janitor’s room during high school days. 

No matter how much I tried to convince you that he made a mistake, he thought you were Justine and not June, still you cried your eyes out because he was your crush, and you were heartbroken. I always wonder at how soft and innocent you were, praying no one should change my girl to a wildcat like me.

We were always so close that people couldn’t ddifferentiate Justine from June because we never told anyone our names, we were each other only friends till Veronica came into the picture and until you really couldn’t come mear me during my graduation because of the fear of harry, and he didnt even show up. I didn’t have the strength to move on to college because I didn’t want you to be lonely in high school. You were my muse, but I’m sorry I left you behind, I’m sorry I got carried away in college that I couldn’t return any of your phone calls and messages. 
I’m sorry I forgot about my other half. You can imagine how happy I was when mom called me and told me that you will be attending the same college with me but my heart broke when you ignored me in the cafeteria that day. Guess I really deserved it.

During high school, I’ve seen people approach you; people I pranked with silly messages, with ink ballon and several other offences including teachers office that I destroyed in your name and the police officer who had to come to you for community service because I left your details instead of mine. 

I thought it was all fun but looking back now I realized all I’ve caused you was pain over and over again and I’m so sorry for everything and for being so selfish too.

Even everything you went through in the past few months was all my fault, don’t ever blame yourself for anything. I could have protected you from him but I didn’t. I wanted you to run to me and cry on your knees for help and I’m sorry I didn’t intervene sooner.

As I write this letter june, I know its not the best that I could form right now, I couldn’t even write a whole paragraph to veronica because the nurse writing this for me right now is crying so hard, she could hardly breathe.

Baby smile, you don’t have to be sad too.

Read " His Majesty " by the same author ( Penangel )

. I want you to live a happy life because you deserve the best. If you think you’ve done something really bad, then I want you to know that I’ve forgien you and I hold nothing against you. Youre my favourite woman. I don’t want you to cry too much or feel sad for long because I want your happiness to last. 
God knows you did your best. You were so strong and courageous that I’m so proud of you right now. I know I can’t stay alive with you for long but my greatest wish is to be with you both (you and Veronica) when you receive this letter. Even if I’m dead, ill still be with you, because ill become the wind that blows, the sun that shine and the rain that falls. Always stay close to mom, she’s going through a lot because of dad’s infidelity which I found out about 2 months ago and if she ever decides to leave, be with her every step of the way. 

I love her more than I loved my own mother because she’s the best and the best always deserve the best.

I’m with you always and forever. Fulfill my greatest wish by moving on from all that had happened and be happy forever baby. I love you, jingle bell.
From your favourite girl. Always and forever, you mean the world to me’

I clenched the letter so hard to my heart and cried my eyes out till my throat hurts but I didn’t stop.