Made - Episode 1

It was one of those days i had a depressed mode going on for me. I was lying in my bed in a coiled foetal position. Nothing seemed to be enough. I felt this emptiness inside me. Emptiness so deeply rooted in me and i could not shake it off. I kept thinking of what i had lost. My closest friends were now getting married off or marrying. That was not necessarily a bad thing. I wanted what was best for them though getting new friends would be a hustle on my side.

I had grown up believing in happy endings but had never really seen one. I had tried my luck in dating, heavens i had fallen in love twice only to learn it was never meant to be. Even without pointing fingers learning that you could not be with someone you wanted so much hurt so bad. The pain was unimaginable. I had known pain my whole life which is not many years. Physical pain could be extreme but emotional pain had its own way of sapping the life out of you. Its own special way.

I was in pain for being played. My anger at the world at this point was unquenchable. I was and still am a true believer of love. Just think about it. If every human being on the planet would find love and stick to making their relationship work. No snatching of other people patners. Think of how peaceful the world would be

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. So many unnecessary things could be avoided. No more divorce courts, no more diseases, forced single parenting would go way below in numbers and a bonus of just a little heaven down here. My freinds thought this would be boring. A bit selfish don't you think? Wanting pleasure without consequence, getting used to the darkness until light is the new dark.

So there i was at 23 lying in my bed thinking. I had finished school gotten a job and even started my own bussiness. I had all that i thought i needed. Affording nice classy clothes, trips to nice places and foods, dates in classy restuarants. Truth is that they could fulfill in a short while. In the long run the old sad companion loneliness sandwiched in emptiness  always crawled back into my closest.

Tormented in thoughts that afflicted pain. I could feel tears hot in the corners of my eyes. I often wonderd how i got to this unhappy point. In one hand i was young and financially stable chick on the other hand i had this social circle that had been bleeding for a long time. A hot, heavy and painful mess. The reality is i had been dumped by someone i intently cared about and built my life around the expectation that we would always be together. I felt dumb and foolish.  Nothing at this point could fill the void they had left inside me it was bottomless.

Criiing !!!!

I was jerked back to reality by the door bell ringing. I wonderd who it could be for i was not expecting anyone. By my bedside was a glass half filed with water. I gulped it down and proceeded to the mirror to see if my face was tear stained. I had laid on my bed fully dressed so i did not have to worry if i looked presentable.

He was standing there, with a broad smile on his face. He was wearing a blue t-shirt with matching black jeans and brown sandals. A black leather bag was slinged across from his right shoulder to his left hip.His hands were playing with the straps of his bag.

He cleared his throught and brought his hand foward for a shake.

"Hello am David. I hope am not disturbing you. This wont take long."

Anything to disrupt my depressing afternoon even for a second was welcomed. He cleared his throat again and started to cough slightly then broke into uncontrollable coughs.

"Come on in," i said.

I pushed the door open and moved from the door to let him in. He was a bit reluctant  and i caught him sneaking a peek at his feet. They were a little dusty.

"Come on in," i repeated.

"You  need to take a breath and a glass of water, if you want me to listen to you i insist."

Hesitantly he enterd into my living room and sat on the seat next to the door in a cautious manner. I quickly ran to the kitchen and brought a glass of water with some cough relief tablets and offered them to him.

"Don't worry they are just cough relief tablets almost like candy. See!"

I put one tablet in my mouth to encourage him to take his. I sat on my favourite couch and waited for him to drain the contents of the glass. He then carefully placed the glass on top of the table. He reached for his bag that was neatly standing by his seat and removed a small pamphlet.

"I was doing my normal sunday rounds and this was the last one i got , for you." He gently spoke.

I opened the pamphlet and carefully studied it contents.

"Church things, " i mutterd under my breath.

"You said something miss....?" David inquired

"Miss Daniella!" I cut sharply

"Nothing, ummm so you do this quite often David ?"

"Every Sunday for the last year, though i have never been to this side of the estate."

"So from which side are you from David?"

I always liked adressing people with their name. I found it to sooth tensed atmosphere.

"Am from the eastern side. I attend the church there, The Eastern Light baptist Church," David replied.

I pretended to examine the contents once again. Then arose and placed it on top of the other books i had on my living room bookshelf.

"I'll be sure to read it. Thank you so much."

Truth was i had no intention of reading it. I had grown with good christian parents.

Read " Imagine Mountains " by the same author ( DORSILA ANYANGO )

. They had showed me the door to church. You know how it is one moment you are a child in sunday school the next you a full grown teen dodging church any chance you get. I believed in a Superior Being up there. I tried so hard, i would give alms to the poor when i could. I honestly believed if i stayed out of trouble and be loving to my neighbours i would be fine. Taking Christianity as serious as he might have to bring the pamphlet to me had never been any of my plans.

David rose and offerd his hand for a shake. I shook his hand and even though i did not feel like it i smiled back at his broad simle. It was so infectious. I even found myself asking for more pamphlets if he could avail them to me.

He then picked up his bag and i saw him out, thanked him again and went back inside. It was now 5.00 pm in the evening. I switched on the telly and started searching for a channel to watch.

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Dear readers.

If you find yourself here reading all this mess i hoped you loved it.Tell me what you think before i write the next episode. 

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