From The Eyes Of A Spinster - Episode 8

 

Women who are victims of rape are rarely able to recover from this profound trauma alone. The trauma can have a devastating impact on a person's emotional, physical and spiritual health, leaving the victim unable to properly cope with, and process emotions. 

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She thrust it through her v-gina, in and out, and then closed her eyes welcoming the pain and pleasure accompanying the process. She mo-ned for a while and eventually screamed out of pleasure as soon as she reached climax. It has been a daily routine for Nafisah, To masturbate herself whenever the need arises. She stood up, adjusted her skirt and walked to the bathroom. She was breathing heavily and her heart was beating faster than normal. She could feel a total excitement through her nervous system due to the o-gasm. Her legs were shaking, and that almost got her lose balance and fall to the ground. She didn't know and never cared to know the impact of what she's doing. She has already vowed never to beg her dad to marry her off. He wants her to study right? Then study it is! But whenever the desire for intimacy arises, she masturbate herself and feel the pleasure.

Nafisah has always been those types of girls who wants to get married, why? Because they have a strong desire for intimacy which they can't control. Most times, Nafisah fast to prevent that but ends up breaking it while masturbating herself. When she told her dad she wants to get married, he shunned the idea telling her to study hard and gain her degree certificate first before thinking about marriage. Seeing that she can't persuade him, Nafisah opted out to the only option that seem right to her, which is masturbating herself to pleasure.

She came out of the bathroom showered. Tied around her body was a plain pink fluffy towel. She quickly dressed up in a plain ankara skirt and blouse, put on her hijab and walked out like the devout girl she has always been.

"Good morning mummies" She greeted both her mom and Mama Rabi who were having breakfast on the dinning table.

"Morning dear. How was your night?" Hajiya Siyamah asked.

"Fine, Alhamdulillah. I dreamt that I was already a graduate" She dreamily said.

Mama Rabi chuckled at her expression before saying, "Everything has its time, and prayer is the best option to everything" 

"Yes. Thank you, am off to school... Got morning lectures" She said before pecking them both and running out.

"You didn't have anything Nafisah. Come back here and eat something" Mama Rabi called her.

"No, I'm already late. Will have something in school" She yelled back.

"Hmmm... I don't know why you girls don't like eating. You want to maintain your body right? Good, keep maintaining it and when you're too slim to even carry your pregnancy I'll see what you will do about it" Mama Rabi murmured, playfully.

Hajiya Siyamah laughed shaking her head before saying "Mama rabi da yaranta (i.e Mama rabi with her childish talks)" 

Mama Rabi heaved a sigh, "Aunty. I want to talk to you about something. It's concerning Nafisah" she said in a serious tone.

"What is it about her?" Hajiya Siyamah asked, looking at her closely hoping to hear something good.

"I was wondering, why don't we talk to Yaya Sa'eed about what her dad said? She's ready to get married and it's what she wants. Why don't we tell him maybe he can talk to Alhaji about it and get it done with"

Hajiya Siyamah was silent for a while before replying her, "Why don't we just leave him with his choice? he wants them to study so lets just watch them. They are already in their final years except for Sakinah who has one more year to go before going to law school. I think we should just let them be for the main time"

"Alright, but what I'm saying is, since she's the one that brought about the idea, maybe we should consider it and give her a chance. But since you said we should adhere to Alhaji, it's okey. I stand defeated".

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"Good morning Miss Sakinah. How are doing today?" Doctor Faysal greeted Sakinah who was sitting opposite him. This will be the third time they are meeting. And just like in their first meeting, when she was asked the same question in the past two weeks, she zoned out but not as quickly as she did in the first time. And today, he's hoping for an improvement.

"Are you willing to tell me what happened that day, Miss?" He asked again calmly.

Sakinah looked at him blankly, recalling vividly that very day. She's still seeing it like it happened that very day. She looked at the doctor, and today instead of feeling that fear or seeing him look like Habeeb, she saw the doctor in him.

"He said he wants to tutor me. That was the first day it happened. And when he took me inside his room, he locked the door and fingered me" Sakinah said blankly. From the way she looks, the doctor knows well that she's trying so hard to fight the urge to scream out of fear or run from his presence. Already, she is shivering due to fear.

"He fingered you?" Doctor Faysal asked again.

"Yes" Sakinah answered not meeting his gaze, " He used three of his fingers, and even when I was crying and begging him to stop, he never listened. He seemed to like it the more when I'm weeping and imploring. I... I begged him, and begged him. But... but he never stopped" she stuttered.

The fear was now back, and any moment from now, she could pass out.

"Thank you so much for your time Miss Sakinah. You can now go, till we meet next week"

Sakinah stood up, without even looking at the doctor and walked out.

She was driving without concentrating on the road and what she was doing when she almost hit a man. Sakinah quickly stopped the car and ran out. All her thought was that she hit a young boy or an old man. But when she stormed out of the car, she saw a man withdrawing from the ground to his feet. She quickly turned, out of fear, and stormed back to the car.

"Hey miss! Don't you have eyes? Who are you and who the hell do you think you are?" the man said angrily as he followed her, now, standing by her door side.

Sakinah didn't turn to look at him even when she knows that he could not see her through the tinted glass.

"Are you deaf or what?" He asked angrily, while hitting the glass with his hand. 

And when she lowered the glass, that was when he saw her clearly... and right that instant his face lit up with a smile.

"Ahh, Sis! Two days" He said, grinning.

Sakinah looked at him and hissed, returning the key into the ignition.

Mansur was dazed, but then remembered that Safinah told him they were triplets.

"Uugghh! Stupid me! She must be the grumpy one" He mused to himself and looked at her. 

She rolled her eyes and quickly ignited the engine into action.

"Hey, are you leaving? Okey, please learn to smile sometimes. You look old and grumpy with a face like that. And also, learn to appreciate what other people do to you. Have a nice day" with that, he stepped away from the car as she elevated her side glass. 

She gave him a disgusting look while adjusting the gear lever, and quickly accelerated the car away.