Embedded Roses - Episode 7

 

*_Dedicated to Amina Abimiku (cocomeena)_*

*_AMINA*_

I stared at the phone in my hand blankly, totally lost in thoughts. My heart felt heavy and i tried a lot to cry but couldn't. Why is life unfair sometimes? I thought i will be Happy now, i thought all those insecurities and criticism are gone. I thought i am now some one wanted, someone loved and someone cared for . If this message was sent to shatter my dreams and hopes....then Mujaheed has succeed.

But i thought he was different and wasn't like the rest? I thought his heart is pure and i mean something to him....maybe just a little? But, he proved to be worst than i thought and just thinking about it or reading this message over and over again.... My heart keeps breaking... Into tiny and little pieces!.

I felt a tap on my shoulder which made me turn. It was fa'iza, she came back two days back in anticipation of my wedding....little did we know that everything will change and mujaheed is not the right man for me. Just that thought made tears rush down my cheeks.

"Amina" she said slowly as she sat beside me on the bed "I know it just happened yesterday, but can you please stop crying?".

"If only i could sis...if only i could. Place your hand on my heart and feel how fast its beating

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. Do you know the pain am feeling right now? Did you know how my heart aches or the type of pain piercing through it? Sis what is it i lack? don't i have a good personality? Or me being a warrior is my own taboo? Sis tell me where i went wrong, tell me please. Was i not being a perfect fiancée? Don't i Care for him as much as i can? I just don't know why he called off the wedding just two weeks to.....he didn't even care to know my feelings, he didn't consider the pian I'll go through or even my love for him. Fa'iza he came over in the afternoon acting all lovey dovey only to send me this text thirty minutes after he left. Was that fair?" I asked her slowly.....my voice chocking.

     "No sis. But i want you to understand a thing. Maybe Mujaheed is not the best for you, maybe he won't make you happy, maybe he'll only hurt you and go away and maybe he'll just use you and dump you like a piece of garbage. Have you consider that part?" She asked soothingly.

Now that she talked about it, i got to understand that its not everything we want in life we got to have. I've loved jaafar but never got to marry him, and now i love mujaheed and its still the same, am loosing and maybe its the best for me and him.

       "Do you know the best part of having some one as amazing and understanding as you?" I said smiling "its because you're always there to help when am in dire need of help and not for once have you ever felt like its high time i face my problems alone. Thank you for being there, for being that sister  i never had. I love you sis"

"I love you too doll head" she replied before engulfing me in a bone crushing hug.

       "Easy miss, don't break my bones mana..they are fragile" i said as i moved back.

"You know you are so so annoying sometimes right?" Fa'iza said feigning hurt.

       "And you love me all the same.. More than life itself"

"Yeah yeah, i know right and i won't deny that fact. Now go wash up that ugly face of yours, you look like a He-goat".

      "What!?" I shouted as i grabbed a pillow and smacked it hard on her face.

"Ouch!" She said her hands on her face "you know that hurts right? Are you jealous am more prettier and cuter than you? Lord of mercy! How can a sister be jealous of her own sister? Mah God deliver you". And without a warning, she also smacked the pillow to my face.

      "Aswear saina rama" i said grabbing the other pillow and running after her.

"Catch me if you can doll like" she shouted.

         "Oh! I sure will piglet" i shouted back.

"Yoyoo...what's up guys! Easy" usman said holding a plate of noodles in his hand and a bottle of tiger nuts drink. I stopped in my tracks and ran over to him.

"I have the best brother ever! Let's share your noodles dude".

     "What?! No way miss. Go in and cook if you're so hungry".

"You'll share it with only me right?" Fa'iza asked rushing to his side.

     "Mama!" Usman shouted "Come and carry your girls and tell them to let me live in peace!".

"Naughty boy". I said giving him a punch on his shoulder "Noodles dinnan ne dai saina ci malam" i added.

"Same here girl!" Fa'iza said as we grabbed the plate from his hand.

      "I hate you girls with passion!" He said gritting his teeth.

"We love you guy with passion!" We replied smiling at him.

*

"I hate slicing onions!" I yelled. My eyes all red and puffy "who brought the idea of cooking with onions mama?"

       "Miss, can you please face your work and let me do mine?' Mama replied  without even sparing me a glance.

"Humph! Why can't fa'iza or usman slice it mama? Look at how am crying".

"That's how we all do it" usman chirped in as he continued peeling the yam.

"Who asked you malam" i said eyeing him.

      "Just slice your onions and let him be". Fa'iza said.

"Why are you all against me?".

       "Because you are stubborn girl" fa'iza replied.

"That's not t....." My words were cut short when my phone buzzed.

     "Arrggh! Who's trying to disturb me again". I mused to myself as i draw the phone out of my shorts. A new number...who could this be?

"Salaamu alaikoom". A deep voice said. I know this voice, could it be him? No, i doubt. I composed myself before replying.

     "Wa alaikumus salaam. Who's this please?".

"Amina, how are you?". Oh, so he knows my name? Is this really jaafar?.

     "Fine Alhamdulillah. Who's this please?" I asked again.

"Your future husband in shaa Allah. My name is jaafar".

Right that instant, all the anger I've tried hiding popped out and i lost it. "Are you stupid? What do you think i am? A toy? You must be an ignorant fool to say that. This will be the last time you should call me jaafar. I'm a changed person, I'm not that broken girl you've known and seen. This is a new Amina not the old one. Have a nice day". And i ended the call.

"Stupid fool, you thought I'm still that naive girl right? Well call me again and I'll show you the difference between the old Amina and the new Amina. Wawa kawai dan tusa" wait! Who am i talking to? I looked up only for my eyes to caught up with six pairs of eyes looking at me.

"What's all that Amina?" Mama asked in a serious tone.

      "Wha...what? Ugh..ugh..." I stammered scratching my neck "its nothing mama" i added grinning.

"Do i look like am kidding around? What was all that? Was that the brought up i gave you? Was that what i taught you? To talk to a person the way that seem fit to you? So this is the new Amina you're talking about, tell one good thing about the new Amina we have here fa'iza".

"She's all slim, cry easily and gets angry at silly and un serious easily. Intact, all her chubby cheeks are gone and we only see bones and a gloomy Amina every day". Fa'iza said.

"Now tell me what's good about the new Amina!" Mama shouted "You think I've not been watching you? So the new Amina doesn't believe in Qadr and face her future right? Amina what are you turning into?" Mama asked slowly this time.

"Am sorry mama, am so sorry" i said hugging her tight and fighting the tears threatening to spill from my eyes.

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. I have to be Strong!

"Its okay dear....its okay" she said and i felt fa'iza and usman hugging us both. Family are the best and will always be!.

*

It was a beautiful and bright saturday morning. I woke up all gloomy and moody with no specific reason. My heart felt heavy and it took a lot of time and effort for fa'iza to get me out of bed. I took a quick shower and put on my plain pink boubou. I didn't care to add anything concerning makeup to my face other than Kohl.

I had breakfast in bed claiming to be sick. So, i was left all alone... But something is fishy, fa'iza has been looking at me and smiling, she'll then shake her head and mutter something like a prayer before going, only to come back again minutes later and repeat it. What is going on?.

   Papa and Mama also had the same expression since yesterday. Why aren't they sharing whatever it is with me? Usman has been the weirdest of them all as he has been going out and buying foodstuffs in bulky way beyond our budget. Are they planning a surprise party? I hope so!