Twisted Twice, Twisted Mine - Episode 41

 

Adélie. 

I'm sure what I saw was right, right? I wasn't mistaken, I saw an exact replica of me. 

It's got to be. 

I'm sitting on the ground at the base of the couch when a call enters, I let it ring. 

I'm sure it's Vance, of course it's Vance, he's the only one who has my number, who else would be calling. 

I don't know how to relate with him after he said he liked me, I don't want to think about that. 

I mean, how could he like me, I'm the most naive person you would ever meet, I only just found out that what he did with his lips the other day was a kiss. 

I sigh and rest my head on my knees, blindly staring at the door, it opens and my mom steps in. 

"Adee, baby were are you?" 

"Over here mom" I reply, she's looking good, I'm sure the California air did good for her. 

She sees me and waves, I do too, a little less enthusiastically. 

She sits down on the floor with me and I raise my head, giving her my undivided attention. 

"What's wrong?" She asks and I feel my heart clam up, I've tried all my life, everything I could to make sure she doesn't hate me,to make her not worry over me. 

I know it must be hard for her seeing me, although she never makes me feel guilty but I know she's going through a tough time. 

My dad is the same, they've tried a thousand times to explain that I wasn't to blame but my heart says otherwise. 

She strokes my hair off my face and watches my eyes closely, I don't give a thing away. 

I'm not going to tell her I saw Addie, if Addie doesn't want to be found, I have no conscience in finding someone who doesn't want to found. 

As much as it kills me, I might have to be content with the knowledge that she's alive, somewhere in the world. 

"Nothing, I think I'm just getting early cramps" I say, the lie rolling off my tongue with ease. 

It's a wonder how she always seems to believe me. 

"Are you sure about that? It's nothing to do with the fact that you've been leaving the house more than normal lately?" 

Oh. 

So, I'm bad at lying. 

"You know about that?" 

"Is there something about you that I don't know about?" She asks but doesn't wait for my response before continuing. 

"I got your list, I bought the bluest set of night gowns I could find" She says and I nod, I'm suddenly overwhelmed with emotion so I fling my self in her arms. 

"Adee?" She asks uncertainly, even as her hand closes around me. 

"I'm sorry mom" I say, my voice breaking at the end, the tears threatening to come. 

"Why are you sorry baby?" 

"I'm sorry if I hurt you by existing" I say and she pauses the stroke on my head to lift it up. 

"You are the best thing in my life baby, you and your sister were, it's unfortunate that we lost her, but I continue to live just because I know that your heart is pounding, you are the reason for my existence, I should be the one thanking you" She says softly and I sob. 

"This is the first time you've hugged me since you were little, it's sweet baby, please continue to do that" She says and I wonder for the first time if I've been selfish in hiding my pain, if I've been hurting my parents by not sharing my hurt. 

I nod and rest my head on her shoulder as she continues to stroke my hair. 

It's a good thing, it's a good thing, it's better if she doesn't know that I saw my sister, it's better for her not to loose a child twice. 

Little did I know that my life was going to be turned upside down. 

AN. 

I've been a very irresponsible person to you, i admit and I apologize. 

I was having a hard time in real life and it affected my creativity, I'm sorry, I had writers block and I didn't want to pen down something that did not meet the other episodes. 

I'm sure you noticed this episode is short, yup, I've been trying to write it for about 4 days now, I open the app and exit, I'm surprised I put down this much. 

Please, please, don't forget to forgive me, thanks for your understanding and understanding and understanding and understanding. 

And of course your support. 

I love you. 

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