Hate Is A Strong Word - Episode 17

XAVIER:

Pride is okay if you've earned it the right way, with hard work, dedication and love. When you do something so magnificent as a gift from the heart and soul, you can stand back and feel proud, that's healthy. The problems come when people seek unearned pride and that is a rotten root of our societal tree, spreading the rancid branches of racism, negative-nationalism, religious hatred. There is only one thing I lack right now, one thing that made me realize that I have a heart…..LOVE, a four letters word that haunted me till now….. I should have known good things don’t last forever….i shouldn’t have fallen too deep, but who can help it, as strong as I am….i couldn’t. 8years of terrible living…..8years of fake smiles and fake happiness, 8years that I had to cast aside my passion for basketball and faced my father’s business…..8years of me not having s*x with any woman twice……8years of me carrying her picture with me everywhere I go. Its crazy and I know….but can you help it when a part of you is locked somewhere far away? A part of you that you don’t know if you are gonna see again?...i f*cking miss her…..and it f*cking hurts everytime.

Hey man!; Thomas tapped my shoulder from behind.

He is the only one that knew I was hurting….the one that understands my pain..even more than my own family…. He’s the brother I never had.

Laura is picking up her chief bridesmaid at the airport, my cousin should be here in the next 30minutes or so.

Only God knows who the mysterious girl is; he said in an amused tone as he chuckled.

Mysterious girl; I repeated as I smiled at the memories coming back….my first nickname for Red.

Isn’t it funny, that if I had made a different decision I wouldn’t be here now? If I had put a different answer on that sheet, my fate would’ve been written in different ink. Because if I was sat here in a different universe, without Red by my side, I would have never become complete. I shouldn’t have met sasha at the janitor’s closet.

I bit back the tears that were threatning to come out…I am a full grown man…I shouldn’t be crying like a baby.

I faced Thomas with a half-hearted smile….. Wilson and Michael are waiting for us downstairs man!, lets go and meet them. I was about to brush pass him when he pulled me back……. Concerned laced at every inch of his face….. I know you miss her Xavier, I know you are hurting……I have felt this way before…..when something was your sole essence of living but anytime you try to lay your hands on it….it slips away. I’d feel the same if laura isn’t in my life xav…..i have been inlove with her since elementary school…and if not for your encouragement, I’d have chickened out of it, I wouldn’t have asked her out….and I’d have been regretting it now, because there wouldn’t be a wedding. Just keep calm nigga….i know things are gonna change very soon.

We went downstairs to join Michael and Wilson…..the four of us had been a clique since forever,…..now we are known as the hottest, youngest and richest CEOs in this country…..we have come so far…and I am so proud that we all are successful…..wilson, michael and I were known as the playboys…while Thomas was known as the lady’s heartrob….unfortunately for them,….he’s taken…..we talked about business and women for a while, then Thomas excused us to pick a call…from laura, I guess.

When he came back….he told us, the chief bridesmaid and his cousin, kelvin boarded the same plane, so the limo picked them together….they are almost here; he beamed.

Wilson and Michael rushed out to see who the chief bridesmaid was, while Thomas and I walked behind them.

A couple of minutes after we went out, a limo drove in, and laura came out of it, hugging Thomas as if she has not seen him for 10years. Kelvin came out while pulling a woman out with care…. her curly red hair falling in soft layers around her bare shoulders. She had the right physique and the right hair, but i'd have to wait for her to turn to get a positive I.D. on the face, her eyes shone, showing the mixture of blue and green specks, her lips, full and glossy pink even in the fading light of the evening. Her bare arms were enticing, if not seductive and about her neck sat the diamond necklace that changes colour like her eyes. Beautiful is an understatement to qualify her look. She was the thief , the one that stole my heart.

Red?; I called out, and my voice was almost breaking.

She smiled and it didn’t reach her eyes…..

Hi everyone; she said as if it was the most normal thing in the world.

I felt a huge pain in my heart; its true that the people you love the most will hurt you the most.

I am in deep trouble.

A/N

I am in tears right now

This episode got me so emotional

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