Behind You - Episode 34

 

Farah 

My mind is preoccupied with mom said.

Am i ready to divorce him?

I wrapped a hijab on my head, i need to cool off my mind. My legs are now better i have nothing to worry about.

"Mom i will be right back, I'm going to take a walk." I shouted to her who is in the kitchen.

"Okay take care of yourself" she answered back. 

I inhale a sharp breath feeling the cool breeze. Finally I've been out after staying at home for a while . I sat myself on the empty bench letting a smile out of my lips. As i glance up to the sky, i close my eyes feeling some sort of relieve. I felt a presence beside me, turning my face, my eyes met with jawad. First time seeing him after the incident at the hospital. His face looks different with few stubble laid on his jaw, wrinkles under his eyes. I stand up immediately realizing what I'm doing. I started walking towards the direction of god know where.

Sh*t! Why am i nervous.

"Listen to me please Farah." He said following behind me.

"What do you want." I said emotionless.

"Please Farah listen to me." 

"I don't want to listen to anything you have to say." I spitted feeling anger boiling inside me. I turned around but stopped when i feel a pair of warm hands holding my arm

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. I hate him but i can't resist how his touch is affecting me.

"Please Farah just for 5mins." He whispered. I can't help being weak by his words. I spot his car few inches away from us, without saying anything , i walked to his car and got inside he followed me and enters also.

An awkward silence fell on us, the type of silence that you feel when you are short of words. I fiddled with the hem of my abaya.

"If you have nothing to say, there is no need in wasting my time." I finally said breaking the silence.

"I don't know how to start." A chuckle escape from his lips. "Actually I'm not used to this." I turned my face towards the window, i can feel his gaze on me.

"Farah Don't leave me please, i know i did  lot of bad things to you in the past, but I've changed am not the same jawad as before." He reached for my hands and place it just below his heart.

"Can you feel my heartbeat, whenever I'm close to you it beat faster, you have no idea how much I'm feeling right now."

"I love you Farah." 

Time seems to stop for a moment. His words sent sparkles down my body. My heart rate increase i couldn't believe my eyes. 

He love me?

Looking into his eyes i found myself lost in them. we stayed like that for what seems like forever until i realized what i was doing, i realised my hands from his hold and turn my face away.

I was suppose to be angry at him.

"And i don't love you." I find myself saying. His eyes wide for a mere second before he changes it to a sad one.

"I know you don't mean what you said." He ushered back.

"I mean it , i don't love you" i replied back finding myself being angry again.

"Look into my eyes and tell me you don't love me." I turned deaf to his words. He turned my face facing him. My heart starting beating fast.

"I DON'T LOVE YOU!." I seethe  getting out of the car. I was also surprised by my words. This time he didn't follow me, and i was glad because my body is shaking by my own outburst. I entered the house without noticing my mom sitting in the living area. 

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Night came and i couldn't sleep, i was turning on my bed. I can't get the earlier event out of my head. My phone buzzed from the nightstand, checking it i saw a message from jawad. What does he want again?

Farah i know you don't mean what you said earlier. Please don't play hard to get

An annoyed chuckle made it way out of my lips. Who's playing hard to get, can't he see i hate him.

Did you really hate him? My mind tells me. I brush off the thought. I heard another buzz indicating a new message.

Farah we are adults, we need to sort things out ourselves. Please give me a change to prove to you that I've change and how much i love you. I can't bear to be apart from.

Something ignite in me. I want to give him a chance but my mind keeps thinking about the past.

Suddenly the door creaked open revealing Yasmin.

"What happened can't sleep?" She asked. I nod my head in return.

"I can't sleep too." She replied back.  

"Come sit" i ushered her towards me patting the empty spot beside me. Taking a seat, silence fell on us. Until i break the silence.

"What do you think, should i give him a chance"

"Jawad" i added seeing her confused expression.

"Do you love him sis?" She asked.

"I do.. But he hurt me." I muttered almost to myself.

I do love him but i feel insecure what if he repeat the same thing again.

"Since he confessed that he loves you, you should give him a chance to prove himself that he's changed." "Think about it this is your life." She added.

Yasmin talks maturely, sometimes i used to think if she's really my baby sister. 

"Okay thanks for the advice." I said getting a smile in return.

"Let me borrow your bed for tonight goodnight." She said getting under the covers.

"Goodnight." 

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I took a sip of my chocolate milkshake waiting for jawad to arrive. After much thought, i decided to give him chance. I compose myself seeing him entering through the door.

"Good morning." He said, the moment he sat himself down on the chair facing me.

"Good morning." I muttered enough for him to hear. He waved his hand trying to call the waiter.

"What will you like to eat?" He asked.

"No need for that I'm okay with this." I point to my milkshake. "So let's get straight to the point." 

"I'm giving one month to prove to me that you've really change." I said folding my hands on my chest. His eyes went wide, i know he didn't expect it.

"But i have a few conditions."

"Tell me the conditions, i will do whatever you want."

"Oh really?" I asked leaning my elbow on the table.

"Yes." He replied back.

"Okay first you will give me my job back, second if i am to go back to your house i want a separate room. Lastly, you will do just everything i want" "So Mr jawad are you okay with my conditions?"

Not waiting for his answer, i left the restaurant with an evil grin plastered on my face.