LISTEN

The world failed to listen to me when I talked, it failed to pay attention to the things I had to say. I never meant to leave you alone mother but I can’t help but feel this emptiness. You’ve shown me how much you care for me but it is not enough. How about showing me that love you claim to have for me. I get bullied in school but I can’t tell you that, I get called “ugly and fat, a dark-skinned girl who would never fit it” who has no father . “she is a loser” they say, “mother what if I am truly a loser?”

The world failed to hear my plea when I got r*ped by the man who claimed to be my father. I have no purpose but I want to leave you with a question “what is my purpose if all I feel is pain and agony?” “Why should I not take my life when I never had a life?”

“Life has put so much pressure on me, a weight so heavy, it makes me want to sink to the ground, take my life just to find peace. Life is a mess but it has gotten messier as there is no one to help clean this mess. A thirst for that inner peace makes me want to shut myself out. I awaited a solution but all I got was condemnation. I cannot endure the pain any longer,” she says before slitting her wrist.

Do not mourn my departure. I believe there is a place much better than this horror called “earth”. This is not the end of me, I want to embark on a journey……..

LISTEN to me. I have a story to tell.