mother i had

I wished and I only wished i have the type of mother every child dream of, but life was unfair to gave me the type of mother I had.

My life changed when I turned 12yr to the way I can't even imagined.

When I was sad and depressed, I needed you to be there to cheer me up. Instead, I cried my eyes out till I sept off.

When I lost all my friends and had no one, I needed you to be that only friend I had left and talk to. Instead I experienced what the word "friendless" really meant.

When I was angry and full of rage, I needed you to calm me down . Instead, I kept it all bottled up inside.

When I felt unloved, I needed you to tell me how much you loved me. Instead, I learned the word "I love you" are meaningless

When my world are crashing down on me,I needed you to be the one I ran to. Instead, I locked myself in my room in complete despair.

When I would inflict self-tortured, wanting to die or commit suicide, I needed you to stop me and tell me how important I was. Instead, I hid my scars and become oblivious to everyone.

And now am dying on my own