Apology For The Alibi

"I'd like to think you're spending your nights peacefully on the arms of someone who's brave enough to love you and stay. 

I'd like to think that things got better for you after I was gone. I didn't look back, because I left you with an ear-splitting goodbye. It was a piercing end. 

I didn't have the right to re-enter someone's life I onced burned down. Not when I am no longer invited in . Not when you found peace now. No excuses would make my lying and leaving acceptable. 

I didn't look back. I silently walked away from your family. Staying gone is my sincere apology to you. I hope you forgive me, and I understand if your forgiveness wouldn't require a key to your door again. 

People can forgive and forget. They can forgive the treachery, and they are allowed to forget the person who committed the mistake. It's fine, you can erase me. It's better to be completely forgotten than to be furiously remembered with all the wrathful memories. 

When someone is deeply hurt, the good memories won't seem to matter anyway. And I want your pain to subside. So forgive me, and forget me. 

I'll stay away so I could no longer disturb your balance. So I could stop making waves that might start another series of outrage emotions. So you could freely love without being reminded of my betrayal all the time. 

Be free of me. You deserve better, and I'm giving you a space in this universe without a trace of me. I'll be far enough that you wouldn't even feel that I once circled around your axis. Be happy. You deserve a radiant life without me."

      Shi Collantes