Apology for ALIBI, ( her Reply)

I made home around your arms just to find out someone was already living there, and in the end I was the one called a trespasser when I have loved you when you didn't even know what love was.

"Maybe the reason why I’m struggling to get over you is that I just didn’t fell on the surface. I fell in love down the sea bed . In the deepest, unexplored part of you.
And I know you're not coming back, but sometimes I hope you ache the day you left me. 

I hope it aches too much that it starts making you feel sad rather than hurt. I hope when you look back, our history will slip through and you wonder about me and how it could have been if you stayed. 

I hope you rewrite our story in your head and freeze the scene where you decided to leave. I hope you regret it. I hope you consider it as the greatest mistake you’ve ever committed. That you left too soon. 

I hope you choke every time you remember the words you said, like how they poisoned me. And the goodbye that I never heard. And that you never even told me why. 

I hope you see me everywhere. From everything to nothing to you being empty. Exactly the way you consumed me. I hope you get reminded of me with the moon at night, and the sun in the morning. With all the metaphors I left you. And the poetry you left me.

And now you no longer deserve even a word from me. Tonight is the night to cleanse myself. Tonight I hope you miss me hard."
            Shi Collantes.